It's only 7:45, but the sky is so blue! The trees are golden green brown, and the day should be in the 60s. Welcome, November!
Yesterday I was thinking (a negative ugly thought) and my rebuttal thought to myself (someone has to put me in my place) reminded me that I have FIVE children. Five. Five. That's absurd.
When I was young, I fully intended to have six children (when I wasn't going to be a hermit writing in the mountains) and live a Little House on the Prairie existence. But the underlying part of me was going to be a slick career woman in the "Big City" planning my two children perfectly and precisely.
What the heck happened? Will the real Jill stand up. I guess the real me was the mom one, but still it catches me off guard with a whack! Five children. Of course, three are nearly grown. It's more like I have two different families. But man. I am having trouble integrating the idea of nearly a half dozen offspring into my mental picture of myself.
Do you know sometimes I want another? Isn't that absurd? We are completely broke, using student loans to supplement and I could ever think that.
I guess the desire for a baby never quite ends.
But now I have grandchildren to look forward to. Tierney is 18! I would never hint or push her into early parenthood. I truly hope she becomes self-sufficient before she has kids. But in five or six years, she could be graduated from college and able to support a small family decently. Then I'll be a grandma, maybe. Isn't that weird?
I love this day already.
Yesterday I was thinking (a negative ugly thought) and my rebuttal thought to myself (someone has to put me in my place) reminded me that I have FIVE children. Five. Five. That's absurd.
When I was young, I fully intended to have six children (when I wasn't going to be a hermit writing in the mountains) and live a Little House on the Prairie existence. But the underlying part of me was going to be a slick career woman in the "Big City" planning my two children perfectly and precisely.
What the heck happened? Will the real Jill stand up. I guess the real me was the mom one, but still it catches me off guard with a whack! Five children. Of course, three are nearly grown. It's more like I have two different families. But man. I am having trouble integrating the idea of nearly a half dozen offspring into my mental picture of myself.
Do you know sometimes I want another? Isn't that absurd? We are completely broke, using student loans to supplement and I could ever think that.
I guess the desire for a baby never quite ends.
But now I have grandchildren to look forward to. Tierney is 18! I would never hint or push her into early parenthood. I truly hope she becomes self-sufficient before she has kids. But in five or six years, she could be graduated from college and able to support a small family decently. Then I'll be a grandma, maybe. Isn't that weird?
I love this day already.
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